This week’s topic comes at the perfect time for me. I’ve been gently weaning Abby since I night weaned her, and now we’re down to nursing at naps, before bed, and maybe once a day if she really needs the snuggles. When I first found out I was pregnant, I wanted to try for tandem nursing. I really wanted to keep the bond with Abby, and I was hoping that by nursing I would be helping her get the nutrients she needed even when she didn’t eat much.
I kept from weaning her, even at night, until she was 12 months old. Considering the fact that I got pregnant when she was about 9 months old, I’m very proud that we lasted so long. But after she turned a year old, all bets were off when it came to night weaning.
For a few weeks, I let her nurse whenever she wanted during the day. But the reality was that she was still nursing too much for me to handle well. So I gradually cut back her daytime feedings. The last one to go was our morning nursing session, and honestly it’s nice to just snuggle with Abby in the morning.
There’s a big part of me that doesn’t want to finish weaning her. She nurses for maybe 5 minutes at naptimes and maybe a little more before bed. It’s not that bad. But I also know that the longer I put this off, the harder it will be on both me and my little Squishy. It’s not the nutrients or the calories I’m worried about anymore (after all, I’m definitely gaining weight now that I’ve mostly weaned Abby), but I am worried about how I’ll react in a month or two. With my hormones raging and other issues that I’ve been dealing with lately, I’d hate to keep breastfeeding Abby to prove a point and get to the place where I don’t want to breastfeed Squishy at all.
This possibility is what keeps me going with this weaning thing. And honestly? I’m so glad I have pictures like this to remind me of our special times together, especially as they’re coming to an end.