There are times when faith comes easy. Either because things are going the way we want them to or because God is answering prayers. Sometimes it’s easy because we’re being reminded of truths, and it’s encouraging.
Then. There are other times. Times when it’s hard because nothing seems to be going “right.” Times when it’s hard because, like the psalmist, we’re wondering if God has forsaken us. Times when it’s easy to fall into depression and wonder why on earth we’re still here.
To say that Lily’s arrival came at a difficult time is an understatement. The day before she was born, my husband’s grandfather died. The hour before she was born, my niece broke her leg in two places. Not to mention the stresses that our family has been dealing with for months seemed to boil over as we waited 11 extra days for her arrival. Some of these things have been worked out, but not all of them. And sometimes in the middle of this craziness, we feel forgotten and abandoned.
Maybe that’s why the song, “You Know Better Than I,” from the movie Joseph, King of Dreams, has been such an encouragement to me.
“You know better than I/You know the way/ I’ll let go of the need to know why/ I’ll take what answers You supply/ You know better than I.”
I don’t know the reasons why we’re going through this hard time, and I don’t need to know all of the answers. I can pray for the wisdom to know what to do and when to do it, though. And I can trust that God knows what He is doing, even when I don’t.