Today is not a good day. Not only did Abby keep both my husband and I up last night, but she’s been fussy all day (to be fair, she woke up with a really bad diaper rash this morning). I’ve been grumpy because on top of the lack of sleep from her fussing and crying last night, I didn’t sleep well due to third trimester sleep woes. Somehow we’ve got to get things together and go to church tonight, ready to love on and lead the youth.
And honestly? I don’t want to. I don’t feel like it. Even after a nap, I’m still tired and worn out.
But this morning I read Psalm 23. Verse 6 begins this way in the ESV: “Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life…” Even on days like today when I don’t feel like doing anything and I tell myself I’m worthless because I’m not trying. Even on days like today when I feel like I have nothing left to offer my family. His goodness and unfailing love pursue me. They follow me. They chase me.
On days like today, it’s up to me to choose to believe that they’re here or not. Today? I choose to trust.