I think I say this every time, but time is flying! My next couple of visits will be 2 weeks apart, and then I’m down to one visit per week. How on earth did I get this far along?? Every now and then, I’ll realize that in about 9 weeks or so (if all goes well), I’ll be holding a newborn again. I’m just slightly freaked out. At the same time, I’m really excited about newborn fluff! I can’t wait to share my newbie stash with you guys!
Lily moves more than Abby did, but her movements are smaller. So far. I feel her nearly all the time unless she’s asleep, and I’m so thankful for that. I still tend to forget that I’m pregnant at times, or at least that pregnancy does affect me. Feeling her move is a great reminder that, yes, I need sleep and rest. And water.
Sleeping is getting harder to do. Abby still gets in bed with us at night, which makes sleeping on my side, um, fun. My legs tend to cramp a little when I sleep completely on my side, so we’re trying to get Abby to sleep more in her bed than in ours. Of course, that’s easier said than done.
I have officially gained about 21 pounds so far. I’m still doing well compared to last time, but I have eaten more sweets the past 3 weeks. I’m planning on backing off of sugar and drinking more water. Oh, and not eating so many “snacks” during the day. I’m all for healthy snacks, but brownies are a far cry from that.
Like last time, I really don’t have any major cravings. We’ve been eating pizza at least once a week, so that really helps. I do want more fruit, but nothing ridiculous. Not like the time when I nearly ate an entire jar of pickles! I am still drinking my one cup of coffee a day, too. It helps me be a better Mommy and wife as well as keeps me going. Totally worth it.
I haven’t written my birth plan yet, but I know that I’m going natural this time. I’m still reading Ina May Gaskin’s Guide to Childbirth, and I love what I’m learning. While some of it seems weird to my Christian worldview, there are some great insights into the birth process that I’m just eating up! I’m also talking to a doula whom I know through Melissa. I’m excited to have her on board, especially since the last time I was at this hospital, the environment was very unfriendly towards natural birth (more on that later). For now, it’s enough for me that not only has my mindset towards birth has changed but that how I’m implementing my plan has also changed.
I’ve had a couple of labor/delivery dreams this past week. The first was that Lily was stillborn. I had this same fear with Abby, but this is the first that I’ve dreamed about it. I’m giving it up to God, especially as her arrival draws near and we’re starting to collect things for her. Only He knows the end, and I’m trying to rest in that. The second wasn’t nearly as morbid. I ended up strapped to the hospital bed again with an epidural. Not exactly nightmare-ish, but not pleasant, either. This is why I’m really excited about having a doula this time around. I definitely hope to avoid that situation this time around!